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Ughh, in the process of furnishing my house and it's lonnnng. But exciting :) i'm gonna post pictures soon of the funished results. I'm looking at these wall decals and I LOVE THEM. Plus, i'm gonna start scrapbooking these next few years, and hopefully some pages from it will make it up onto here :)
Does anyone know of any decent gamecube games? I'm totally up for going retro, i haven't used it in years :)

p.s. I love my Jack Wills blanket :) xxxx
  • Listening to: Bon Iver
  • Watching: Nip/Tuck
  • Playing: Sims 3
  • Eating: Eggs
  • Drinking: Green Tea


Okay - I had a clearout! there were messages backing up on here since February, so I just deleted them all, sorry! This doesn't mean that your comments and favs weren't appreciated, it just means I got really really lazy until i finally snapped and dealt with it! :D My premium sub ran out, and right now I can't afford to buy a new one, because I just bought a new lens, tripod and IR filter for my DSLR, and a Holga 35mm with a fisheye lens, so I'm on basic student rations (if anything!) until my exams are over!

I'm in the process of moving out of university accomodation at the moment, and moving into my own house - weeeeeeee! :clap: I can't wait, and what with all of my new photography stuff being delivered soon, i'm turning over a new leaf, and hope to be taking it all much more seriously :) For now, peace out :)

"This is not the sound of a new man or crispy realization

It's the sound of the unlocking and the lift away

Your love will be

Safe with me"


  • Listening to: Bon Iver
  • Watching: Nip/Tuck
  • Playing: Sims 3
  • Eating: Eggs
  • Drinking: Green Tea

Pardon me.

Journal Entry: Fri Dec 25, 2009, 3:46 AM


And none of this is your fault. And you never did anything to hurt me. And my hips are going to rip your heart out and I shall squeeze it in my fingers until it bursts and will not mend. I'm so sorry...

Ever since I moved out things have changed. It's true that you'll never leave where you are until you decide where you want to be.

You've become everything you hate and exactly what you've always wanted to be all at the same time.


Featured Artists

At the moment I Love:</b>

old life by SH4NT1 My Pola World_Chapter IV by SebastienTabuteaud
Wild Horses by aspius Wintertime... by MartaC
Dreamworld by ModestManiac Rising Thru The Fog by mim304


Some Self-Promotion



  • Listening to: The Playlist...
  • Reading: Butterflies
  • Watching: Lost
  • Playing: Sims 3
  • Eating: Biscuits
  • Drinking: Tea

Remember when goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?

Journal Entry: Thu Sep 10, 2009, 8:56 AM


“you know that the summer is going to be over soon, and that your life is going to change and you'll be moving on to other things.”

I leave home next saturday. There's people i'll miss and people I won't...

Idolization isn't healthy. I no longer trust anyone. And this is a big 'fuck you'.


Featured Artists

At the moment I Love:</b>

old life by SH4NT1 My Pola World_Chapter IV by SebastienTabuteaud
Wild Horses by aspius Wintertime... by MartaC
Dreamworld by ModestManiac Rising Thru The Fog by mim304


Some Self-Promotion



  • Listening to: Muse Breaks
  • Reading: Digital Fortress
  • Watching: Lost
  • Playing: Sims 3
  • Eating: Biscuits
  • Drinking: Tea

Travels

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 5, 2009, 3:08 PM
'Not all who wander are lost'

I'm still in the US of A, but am now on my last leg of the journey, in Florida! I'm also finally eighteen! Whilst I'm loving the sun and tanning and shopping, I miss my best friends and staying awake until 4am watching SAW and being chased around Tescos by security gaurds at 2am :( but i'm home soon! I've been so so so slack with updates on here and i'm sorry! I promise that it will change :D I'd also like to say a huge thank you to all of you, for constantly faving my art and for your lovely comments, and I really do try and reply to every single one of you personally. :D

In other news...
  
I have aquired numerous stalkers who seem to comment me daily stating that they 'love me' and find me to be a 'lovely lady' seriously, visit my myspace comments and photos for a good laugh at my best friend Jonny taking the piss out of some guy named 'Juan' who wishes for me to bear his children. Here is an example:
Juan: 'I love you lady, heart'
Jonny: 'I love you lady, lung'
I won an international class at 'Marlton International Dressage Competition' so major happy :)
Still waiting until the dreaded UNI results come through the post on the 20th, decision time!

Things I have done

I'm offering to display the top three entries of *Dark3y3s's Summer Contest in my journal for a month. So get entering!

Enough of my random rambling for now, :)


Featured Artists

At the moment I Love:</b>

mosh by sean-tron Alice's Flamingo by SachaKalis Perfect Time of Day by emmajeanjumpingbean
hoba by foart Can u find him for me? by SpellboundMisfits


Some Self-Promotion



  • Listening to: Emancipator
  • Reading: Speak
  • Watching: Hustle
  • Playing: Sims 3
  • Eating: Cake
  • Drinking: OJ

My Story So Far

Journal Entry: Mon Jun 15, 2009, 11:29 AM
'God forbid you be an ugly girl. Of course, too pretty is your doom; because everyone has a secret hatred for the prettiest girl in the room.'

So I'm now completely, completely platinum blonde. I look like a freaking playboy bunny lol :D I also have absolutely no plans in the near (or distant) future to go back to being brunette. Having experienced both, I can safely say that blondes definitely do have more fun. (I almost made some guy fall off his motorbike). Art wise, my whole art A-level is FINISHED! so now I can really focus on churning out the art for here, and maybe doing some proper photo shoots. I'd also like to say a huge thank you to all of you, for constantly faving my art and for your lovely comments, and I really do try and reply to every single one of you personally. :D

In other news...
  
I have aquired numerous stalkers who seem to comment me daily stating that they 'love me' and find me to be a 'lovely lady' seriously, visit my myspace comments and photos for a good laugh at my best friend Jonny taking the piss out of some guy named 'Juan' who wishes for me to bear his children. Here is an example:
Juan: 'I love you lady, heart'
Jonny: 'I love you lady, lung'
I've been put on a team for Representing southern England in an international dressage competition in Ireland, thinking of maybe making a video diary of it, and approaching horse-related websites to see if they're interested?
Also thinking of joining one of those TV Extras agencies for some work over the summer...

Things I have done

I'm offering to display the top three entries of *Dark3y3s's Summer Contest in my journal for a month. So get entering!

Enough of my random rambling for now, :)


Featured Artists

At the moment I Love:</b>

mosh by sean-tron Alice's Flamingo by SachaKalis Perfect Time of Day by emmajeanjumpingbean
hoba by foart Can u find him for me? by SpellboundMisfits


Some Self-Promotion



  • Listening to: Boom Boom POW
  • Watching: Hustle
  • Playing: Sims 3
  • Eating: Cake
  • Drinking: Tea

News Flash!

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 18, 2009, 7:14 AM
Update

Today I (meaning the Art Dept.) received an e-mail informing me that I have won the RBS national photography competition 2008/9.  I'm completely blown away! Not only was I selected out of thousands of entries from entrants all over Britain, but most of the people I was competing against study at art universities or do photography-specific courses at college. I also win a camera :clap:. Unfortunately the image I entered isn't on DA as it's not digital, it was taken on a Nikon film SLR, and the scan doesn't really do it justice. Anyway, winning this has seemed to convince my parents that I am good at something and it's definitely got my art teacher off my back :D

Things I should start doing
  
Going to school.
Exercise.
Tan (lol)
Do my 5 essays...

Things I have done

I'm offering to display the top three entries of *Dark3y3s's Summer Contest in my journal for a month. So get entering!



Featured Artists

At the moment I Love:</b>

i can't live without you by kushkush :thumb101296796: :thumb78308084:
akwarelka63 by katarzynajaskiewicz Inseparability by sabotazystka


Some Self-Promotion



  • Listening to: Taylor Swift (imsocool)
  • Watching: Fight Club
  • Drinking: Tea

Spring

Journal Entry: Mon Mar 2, 2009, 12:15 PM
Quarterly Update

These first few months I've made some major awesome changes to my life. Firstly I've quit my job in order to spend a lot more time focusing on my riding career and my school work. I worked my arse off at school (final year there and all that) and now I'm predicted straight A's across all of my A-levels. I've picked up a babysitting job for some extra cash, and it doesn't eat into my time that I have to spend with  the horses or doing school work. Ohh and this year, I'm succeeding. aii :D

The Art Stuff
  
So Anyways, I'm really enjoying messing around with my D90 and I'm in the process of writing an incredibly long piece, but I have to stop and start because it's pretty intense and personal. I'm reading the twilight series. Typical I know... shoot me now! haha x





Featured Artists

At the moment I Love:</b>

:thumb96014062: Over Thistle And Down by xxlogre Zebra III by NicolasEvariste
:: Incorrect Mood  :: by nukieu :thumb63299492:


Some Self-Promotion



  • Listening to: Vampire Weekend
  • Reading: Eclipse
  • Watching: ANTM
  • Drinking: Tea

Fragile

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 18, 2009, 3:02 PM
Paper Lantern

I have noticed that most of my connotations about myself are metaphors made of glass. Streetcar and Tennessee would state that this portrays me as a Blanche-esq figure, fragile like paper. Somehow I don't think Blanche was ever on top of the world though, shame, as I actually quite liked her...
I want you to turn up and exclaim: "this is me, I'm here, which roughly translated means i would rather die than stay away from you"

Talk that actually makes sense
  
So Anyways, I have recently acquired myself a SUBSCRIPTION! woo. Boredom means I spend money, which is bad, however i feel that a subscription is good news, so please bear with me whilst I amuse myself playing around with it.
My new years resolution was to run far far away from where the new years party was held, and thus, I have completed it, so ha. On a slightly more serious note - I do think that resolutions aid disappointment at around April/May time.

I hope you're all feeling fabulous and are ready to take January by storm. haha. All my love xxx


Featured Artists

At the moment I Love:</b>

compact by Green-Lily Deceleration by joereimer :thumb104254085:
Goodbye my lover by korny-pnk carano, again by muszka A strange modern dream-Right by 2jL


Some Self-Promotion



  • Listening to: Ferras
  • Reading: SATC
  • Watching: SATC
  • Drinking: Tea
Looking back on the last three years from where i am now, i realise that everything was so wrong different.
I was so keen to grow up and be old and do things that really, I didn't need to do.
I think these past few months have actually made me stop and look at myself. Up until recently I'd been growing into a person that to be honest, I didn't really like much, however, at the moment I don't feel 100% happy with the changes that I've made in order to better myself as a person.
I think I needed that sudden slap in the face in order to bring me back down from the clouds. I couldn't party forever. It wasn't escapism, it was more than that, worse than that, and I don't know where it's put me at the moment. All I know is that I'm slowing down, finding my real friends and dealing with everything better than most would.
I vow that I will make more art and take more pictures. I must stop my self-indulgent tendencies and start to pay attention to the world around me, not just the people.

If all else fails, I shall look to my perfect eyebrows for guidance :D
  • Listening to: Ferras
  • Reading: SATC
  • Watching: SATC
  • Drinking: Tea
Thank you so much for everything that was left over the summer. It was also really good because someone, someone noticed my prose on here.
Also thank you for over 100 favs on Capture the change. Its not much, but it means alot to me.

I have updated everything that i couldn't be bothered to do over the summer.

And said goodbye.

So now all of you have to keep me occupied on here before i do something stupid.

xx


The end came.
  • Listening to: owl city
  • Reading: survivor
  • Watching: CSI
  • Drinking: Tea
my purple tones are fading.

crap.

Today i fixed my ear.

cleared out my gallery.

I made room for summer.

I'm also going to enter the 2009 BP Portrait thing. As a laugh. Considering i'll only be 17.

lots of pictures for the summer.
xx
  • Listening to: The shinny shin shins
  • Reading: Handmaid's tale
  • Watching: BB...
  • Drinking: Tea
I have my private viewing of my art.
Its scary.
Apparently over 250 invites have gone out :S
Its all my acrylic stuff (because i refuse to paint in anything else) and a selection of photography.
The only anecdote i have to tell people is the one about me being a stubborn cow and refusing to shoot with a digital camera and instead using a black and white film camera that was processed NOWHERE. Twice. So poor Leo was bouncing on that god damned trampoline for a total of about six hours over three days. We were flipping through the LIFE magazine photography journal, and it said that for one of their covers, Marylin Monroe had to jump 250 times. Leo easily trampled all over her.
I've been told i cannot call my collection 'Leo', even though it basically is just him. I have to call it 'Links and connections through masks via emotions and body language' which is apparently 'more meaningful'. Thats a pile of crap. If i wanted to do something meaningful, I'd go all out and do the Meaning of life, but i was told i couldn't do that because I'd done it two years ago, and it wouldn't fit with 'Links and Connections'. Well, i managed to make my best friend jumping around on a trampoline wearing a mask fit in with links and connections so i don't see what the problem is really.
Then, it turned out that they'd forgotten to allocate floor space, which would have been interesting, and by the time it had been split into 14 sections there was no room for me (the curse of having your last name begin with the letter V) so then i said I'd stick my work up in the elevator, and everyone laughed. I was being deadly serious. So now i have my heart set on having my work going up and down, and me just sitting in the corner saying hi and drinking tea, and making up meaningless links and connections between Leo and a trampoline. I'm tempted to say that we truly believe that he is an angel, and then make everyone think I'm raving mad :D oooo... maybe Leo will be willing to stand in the elevator with me... aha, a human link and connection, I'm sure i can work out some crap meaning for that.
As much as I'm looking forward to having my work showcased, as you can probably tell from this entry, i believe that every thing's a pile of crap :D maybe it's just the mood I'm in.... or maybe i really am one of those self-pretentious 'couldn't-give-a-shit-but-really-I-do' artists. Shit...
  • Listening to: The shinny shin shins
  • Reading: Handmaid's tale
  • Watching: BB...
  • Drinking: Tea
I want to crawl into a hole and get lost and on the other side find my own garden of eden.
I want everyone to forget about me and carry on with their lives.
And twenty years later i want someone to find me. And I want to show them just how much better life is when no one knows your name.
  • Listening to: Jose Gonzalez
  • Eating: Cheese
  • Drinking: Tea
I wish I could write again.

It's not that I even have writers block. I just cannot seem to form words on pages in logical sense anymore.

I think it's your fault.

But then again I never do blame myself for anything.

I want my words to get to you.

I want them to change everything. I want them to change everything. I want them to change everything.

It's just that you're leaving me behind.


You saved me and soon you'll be gone.
So much for my beautiful rescue.


On the day you are forced to leave me I shall give you everything I have ever written.
It's all about you anyway and you won't understand any of it because you're not that sort of person.

That's why I love you.
  • Listening to: Jose Gonzalez
  • Reading: Anagram
  • Watching: A Brief Encounter
  • Playing: GHIII
  • Eating: Cake
  • Drinking: Tea